Friday, November 26, 2010

Son Of A Bitch, Everything's Real


Almost a year since I posted to this blog! Where the hell have I been?................Getting sober, that's where! As of tomorrow 11/27/10, I will have six months of sobriety from drugs and alcohol. Yay! I must say I tried everything I could think of to quit on my own before dragging my sorry ass back to MA (Marijuana Anonymous). Yes, they really do have a 12 Step Program for every addiction you can think of.

I've been the 12 Step route before with weed and was sober in Stoners Anonymous for about a year and a half about 6 years ago. I hated every minute of it. This time seems different though. Whether it's just that I'm older and wiser now or that my poor lungs and liver have had enough abuse, who knows? But this time around I'm rather enjoying being clear headed and productive--not to mention having a lot more cash in my pockets now that it's not being spent on high-grade smoke!

The Program is known for having a slew of slogans: "one day at a time", "principles before personalities", et al. But my favorite is an anagram for the word SOBER that does a good summing up of what the first 6 months clean is like: Son Of a Bitch, Everything's Real!!
And so it goes....

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Rainy daze...


Thank all the gods the rains have finally come to central Texas! It's been gray and gloomy for days now and lots of heavenly water pouring from the sky. Everything is green again and practically shouting hallelujah. So nice to feel grass that not dried out and sharp enough to pierce my flip flops.
I took all 5 dogs to the Park this morning for a muddy stroll and they all swam in the rainwater run-off creek, which is flowing strong now after three months of barely a puddle for the pups to splash in.

As for me, I'm not so well. Smoking a lot and hating it and hating the way it sucks my motivation and makes me over eat. Yuck.
I soldier on each day but it's the 12th of Sept and I've only got 2 clean days this month. Not a good average. Sigh...

M is going to NYC for the first time next week to attend the Friars' Club Film Fest where the film he shot last year and stars in is opening for the Cohen Brothers new movie. I am so thrilled for M, but beside myself that I can't go with him. What a different life I would've had if I always had an extra five hundred bucks lying around. That's enough of my whining. Off to do a massage. Tomorrow I audition for Neil Simon's "Laughter On the 23rd Floor" at City Theatre. Would be nice to have a theatre project to work on....

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Been a long time since I rock and rolled....


It's August. The worst drought in Texas in many years is upon us and the heat is unbearable. Much of the grass in the park is scorched to dead hay. Large branches are falling off older trees b/c they can't get enough water to hold them up. I've been giving long drinks to the old pecan tree in my back yard. It lost a substantial limb this week :(

Got new headshots this week by Kathy Whittaker. (see left) It was a lovely shoot with K, and the fabulous McK doing my hair and make up. I'm going back for a quick session next week to take a few more looks. My agent wants to have some shots in bad ass character looks. Always the bitch. When I tell my Dad that I'm doing a new role, he always says "what kind of bitch are you this time?".

The City Theatre is doing "Hamlet". Auditions are in two weeks. I've never done Ophelia or Gertrude and would love to have either on my resume. AB is directing so we'll see....

The horse I'm in love with: Sully (Sovran's Sullivan) is now down to $2000. I've seen video of him and he's sweet and moves cute. He's only 6 so he could be trained. He's already gaited..... Oh Great Mother of the Granted Wishes, send me this horse!!! Somehow, somehow.....

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Back to blonde.....


So here I am again....

Went to see MDF SAM at her salon and got some blond highlights. Not as blond as that photo but close enough. In a few weeks I'm getting new headshots with my agent's fave photog and have high hopes that they will get me in good with our local Emmy winning/recently nominated casting agent here who also casts all of R. Rodriguez' films. I took her workshop and she told my agent that she loves me but I've got to have better photos. Amazing that I've been in this business for 15 years and still looking for the headshot that will get me the proverbial foot in the door....Ah well.

I got my ass down to Flipnotic's last night for the T Jarrod Quartet and sat in. There I met with a piano player who responded to my recent ad for musicians. We got along so we're moving forward with that.....

We'll see what happens..........

Friday, July 3, 2009

Rest in peace...


MJ is still dead. The world grieves. And feels kinda weird and embarrassed. I have great admiration for his one of a kind talent and innovation. He was one of those lucky few born at just the right time.

In other news, I've been getting to the gym again. Ran 2 miles and walked some on the treadmill today and then did sit ups and push ups and arm stuff with a medicine ball. My weight remains at the upper end of my lifelong 20 lb swing and I'm still not so comfy in my skin. But this week I wore 2 different pairs of jeans that were loser on me since the last time I wore them, so a victory.

It's hot as the oven in the old broad's gingerbread house in Texas lately and I've been working a lot this week so haven't gotten up to the Barn to see Shaggy in 5 days or so. Need to get my Saddlebred fix tomorrow.

Speaking of tomorrow: July 4th. When I was 9 it became the day my Mom married my step dad. So I don't tend to celebrate it. But I'll ride. Yee-hah!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

From the desk the mighty PKM...


The following was written by Ms. Patricia Kennealy Morrison. What would we do without her?? Brilliant!!!

"We cannot accept to have in our country women who are prisoners behind netting, cut off from all social life, deprived of identity," Mr Sarkozy told the special session in Versailles.

"That is not the idea that the French republic has of women's dignity.

"The burqa is not a sign of religion, it is a sign of subservience. It will not be welcome on the territory of the French republic," the French president said.


Voila un vrai homme, et un brave aussi! Good for you, Sarko! It's about time someone took a firm stand against the creeping Islamization of the West.

Islamic clerics do not agree on the Koran-mandated necessity of the burqa or the niqab (a burqa is the full-length body covering with a mesh screen over the eyes, a niqab is the black full-length enveloping veil with slits for the eyes...), and even the hijab (scarf head covering) may not necessarily be required. All the Koran says is that both women AND men must clothe themselves modestly; that's it.

Muslim men require their women to cover themselves with sheets because they (the men) cannot master their own "impure" desires and thoughts, and so they insist that their women control their thoughts FOR them by removing the "temptation".

Hey, it's not the fault of women if Muslim men are a pack of juvenile lust-crazed horndogs who can't keep their minds out of their pants (or hers) every time they see a woman. How insulting is that, to both men AND women?

Grow up, guys, and join the 21st century. Show some REAL respect for women, because otherwise why should women show respect for you? Just because you have a dick? (Or ARE a dick?) Sorry, not good enough.

(I must add that Muslims are not alone in this regard: the other desert religions are equally offensive in their attitudes to women---Orthodox Jews thanking God they were not born women and shaving the heads of their wives, who then wear wigs, how nuts is that??, Christians subjugating women to all sorts of humiliation and denying them priesthood...you ALL SUCK, boys.)

It continually confounds me that Muslims move to the West for a "better life" or whatever the hell, presumably one involving more personal freedoms, and then they get their knickers in a twist because the West won't accommodate their medieval and inhumane culture. You can't have it both ways, people! YOU must accommodate yourselves and your beliefs to US and ours. Otherwise, go back to the desert and rot.

I believe with every fiber of my being that any so-called "religion" that allows women to be stoned to death for being out in public without a male companion, to be the victims of "honor" killings, to be kept illiterate and immured indoors, to be divorced at will, is no religion at all. And certainly not one that pleases Allah, or whoever.

That's not a religion. That's male medieval control freaks with their heads in an 8th-century tent and their souls stuffed up a camel's anus.

And if that sounds offensive, I mean it to.

An Iranian woman writer (exiled) pointed out the other day that it really didn't matter WHO was the president of Iran, because she would still be subject to all the anti-woman laws regardless of who was in office, that Mousavi was cut from the same bolt of "religious" cloth as Ahmadinejad. She could still be veiled, stoned, whipped, imprisoned, killed, kept from living a normal life, all in the name of Allah.

Well, I think Allah really hates this. At least, if he's a good god, he SHOULD hate it. And if he doesn't, what woman would want to worship him? I hope he strikes them down harshly, these sour-faced senile mullahs and all who cleave to them and their vile teachings.

In fact...wasn't Allah originally female? Al-Lat, the (female) Sun? A GODDESS??? One of three goddesses, IIRC? I do believe I read that somewhere. It's nice to think that perhaps SHE will finally take vengeance and obtain justice for Her murdered and mutilated daughters.

Insh'Allah, indeed.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Sully

That gorgeous creature is Sovran's Sullivan, a six year old Saddlebred who I'm in love with. Sully is for sale in Illinois for only $3200. The Universe is welcome to buy him for me. :)

The weight loss competition is going well. M and I are in the top ten and it's fun motivation to track our progress with everyone else. There's some real nutbags on there--obsessed with fitness gymrat types. I've lost about 7 pounds so far. M is looking fiiiine is down in the 230s once again, which makes him a tower of manly muscle.
Uh, anyway.... ;)

In other news...I still don't have an agent for my book, and if no one's smart enough to pick it up by the end of this year then it's self publishing here I come. I'd love the chance to design the cover myself and not change a word of it. Then I'd need to find people to promote the shit out of it. But the agent search continues....

I have an audition for a short film on Sunday. Hope I get it. I'm itching to act again. Getting new headshots at the end of July when the contest is over. I hope to be looking fantabulous by then. Onward...